Never update for 2 weeks already! People no motivation to blog right :(
Anw. Life recently, busy busy. Just busy with th normal stuff..
Plus my mood hasn't been very good this week. Maybe cause of all those stuff getting into me and tht feeling i'm getting juz sucks >: You can skip this paragraph if you want to, its pretty useless cuz i don't think you're able to dig anything out from me juz by reading it anyway.
As i was saying, all this just totally haunts you and spoils your mood for th whole day, and very hard to ignore/not care/hide no matter how hard you try.
All this is weirdly hard to explain, like no words can really truly express how i'm feeling right now. And maybe i sound like some sucker saying this but: Nobody will understand.
Maybe all this is my own problem also, i also can't really blame others for this but juz feel so damn sick from trying to shake all of them off knowing tht they will still come back.
I know i have to change things but deep down i kind of know its impossible but at th same time i also know i can't continue like this.
People who probably think they know what i'm talking about, its not really what you think it is. Maybe, a bit of that and some other stuff combined together into one big mess. Idk, everything juz decides to come altogether at th same time its killing me ):

But anyway. 4G BBQ yesterday. Nothing much to say, cuz i didn't really do much over there.
I ate a lot of sausages :o that's about it.
Zhiyan came with contacts and cool clothes, totally shocking although she told me beforehand. But i think i broke her heart when i said she looked weird with contacts. Sorry!!! Just not used to it i guez.
Stopped spamming sausages after Mrs Hudd came with Tisha (sp?) :D
Everyone was obsessed with her and she's really cute and everything. And she's like not shy at all, other than to th guys. I'll be super horridified if i were her too plz.
But she juz went on and on babbling about weird but cute stuff like her boyfriend and everything makes me think about my childhood.
What did I do when I was young. Pee in my pants and cry. Show black face whenever i got a weird haircut from my mom. And i don't think i'll be enjoying myself very much if my mom brought me to BBQs with weird people all around me like this.
I've been an antisocial kid with no EQ since young. That's baaaad.
But anyway. Went home really early with Zhiyi and Vanessa cuz i could foresee myself looking like some loner if i didn't leave with them.

Okay that's about it. Should stop now cuz i intended to use th computer for a while only but ended up posting such a long post.
Would have been studying chem now, but time that is wasted is wasted and after this is my daily dose of TV until it's time to sleep so i can juz go and die now. Bye.