super pissed now
over what??
EVERYTHING

i shall say like one by one since i need time to cool down
oh and before i start,
#1 I am NOT emoing, just pissed
#2 If u r the impatient type that dun like long long stories, den dun read
#3 I'm not really bothered to mind my language in this post so bear with me

now lets start shall we :DD <=thats a totally FAKKEEE smile

okayyy i'm not going china everybody knows that
and i'm damned not happy about it thats bad enough
and i have to go sku for extra 3 days compared to the others
and we the pathetic losers that cant go china ("those hu cant fly" quoted from mr ong)
have to go for the stupid retarded june thing as well thats like soooo unfair ppl are having fun in china and we have to suffer for another 3 days and we STILL have to go for that stupid june thing
actually that i dun really mind
school SUUUCKEEEDD like totally we have like stupid teachers telling us to do work
but like the china trip project thing(english AND chinese) we nid go around the ever nice singapore then can do den dey expect us do
DO WHAT SHIT LAH
den some tchers see we do nothing and be so kaypo then like grandmother like that TOKTOKTOKTOKTOK
they think we what lah
stupid things
thats still ok that ms lee or something see a few boys playing chess whats wrong with chess lah
ask the whole class do like revision excercise 3 and is like the whole of questions 1-6
ok 1-6 u all will be thinking 6 questions only what...
WTH lah you all open ur maths textbook and see the 1-6 lah all got abc...hijkl
thats like so retarded
i mean not everyone is so stupid playing chess rite some ppl are like doing their work like zhiyan they all doing their maths 97 questions and i was doing my music hw-.-
but its not fair and she wants to collect at the end of the day and mind u friday sku end at what time luh and ms lee come in scold us that time is what time luh where got time to do lah
summor mr ong come in take our class den ask us do work sheet
grrrr
being very pissed already
but this is not the climax yet

next was guitar prac is like we were preparing for the performance and mrs koh like shifted me zhiyan joy the pathetic and dumb and stupid and retarded and lousy SEC TWOS to the back
shes like neglecting us lah
only yanyou is at the front and she kept picking at us and like poking her nose into everything like
POKE POKE POKE
and every bloody mistake she heard she will be "those sec twos u all really have to brush up although u all nv go for syf before but u all must learn from the SENIORS"
and she kept going on and on and its damn embarrassing for us ok?
like HELLO we are HUMANS my dear
we have got SELF ESTEEM
does she have to keep blaming us??
and she didnt even see properly hu were the ones making mistakes
like the rhythm part in the walk in the woods
where the seniors are like blind or something theres like a score in front of them cant they see??
they dont even know when to come in and they like that then make the SEC TWOS get scolding
its not ALL the seniors lah but its stupid can?
just a few hai qun zhi ma and make the sec twos become like so pathetic liddat everything oso sec2 sec2 sec2 eh JUNIORS you all have to BUCK UP
whats her shit ass problem lah
then mr shi oso
kip on pointing to the 3 of us + crystal
why does he always imply that we are always the ones making mistakes?
and does he know its so damned rude to point?
he keeps pointing at us
and everybody will be like turn to the back shaking their head liddat when they are probably the ones making the mistakes and they dunno den blame us that kind of yan shen liddat
wl
i used to love guitar
but with those 2 suckers picking at the pathetic sec 2s
i'm starting to hate it lah
i mean hu would like it when you are trying to help and nothing else(like a mockingbird)
and then ppl kip on going"you suck"
how would u feel lah
they didnt say u suck
or u are a bloody idiot
or things like that
but the way and the TONE they say it
is like u are the stupidest person in the world or something
and enough of myself
although yan you is sitting at the front
she no better la
mrs koh kip on saying
yan you dun be so stiff
dun be so stiff
dun be so stiff
so stiff
so stiff
[echoooo]
must SMILE
PlEaSaNt LoOk on ur face
must SWAY
whats wrong with her la
hello this is GUITAR ENSEMBLE
not DANCING GUITAR SOCEITY
or whatever u call it
why must we fake a smile and SWAY and SHAKE when u are trying to concentrate so hard on a piece and nothing else?
she just scared of her face cz she ask dr boon go watch la
l8r embarrass the school
whatever la!
she embarrassing US oso rite
den mr shi ask us play row by row
den when the other row playing we didnt make any comments or what
we just listened
den when we playing
everybody turn their head and like STARED
and STARED
like we are some animal in the cage or in the zoo or whatever
and they kept like talking
is like we show respect to them they dun respect us
WTH
thats sooooo unfair
summor the ppl at the back row
are the sec twos and the seniors that nv go for syf
so of course abit lan la
but cannot so kan bu qi us rite
they themselves oso got make mistake loh
still tok so much
the thing that makes me the most angry is mrs koh lah
is like she kept shaking her head at us like we are prisoners or what and we just committed murder
i mean whats her far king problem??
sucker leh
summor kip on making stupid comments and go poke her nose into every single thing
is like we hen nan zuo ren because of her la
summor the performance
nid wear that type of lame shit costume and must tuck in summor
fringe oso must clip up all
sucker leh
might as well i quit everything lah
ahhh
life sucks
might as well jump down the tower hall
die den gud la
nv die nvm at least i break my legs and sacrifice for 2E so that we can move back
ahh i'm damned pissed now
summor go home is worse lah
got my father
idunno what is wrong with him
but hes damn ap these few days
comparing me with my cousin
hu is damn clever
and i'm damned buay song lah
come on
i'm SEC TWO this year
my cousin is like soooo much older than me
compare what shit lah
summor he damn bushuang about me pulling a black face all the time
dun like den dun see lah!
den still tok a lot of crap
about everything
first china
then music exam
den results
eng
maths
chi
sci
hist
lit
and every shit subjuct there is
den he nothing to say rite
tok about my hair
i mean
whats wrong with my hair la
he think he is dm meh
tok so much
so noisy leh
wl go sku got that big butt tcher
go guitar got all the" SECTWO this SECTWO that"
go home got my father
i go slp
get nightmare
wl life sucks la
not a single second i can have peace
and summor my father officially banned me from tv
no tv means no my girl
no my girl means no leejunki
no leejunki means I RATHER DIE
thats alr bad enough
even i use com oso cannot
like now i shut myself in the room
the minute i step one step out of my room to release voltage/current,
KENA ALREADY
ahhh
everything is like so far king stupid
i mean
from the starting of this year
everything sucked
i never had like freedom
and everything i do
i get restrained and its like the worst thing ever
i rather i stay like last time
just peace
not like so many things happening all at once
and nothing in my way
just normal.
this year so many things happened to me
i dunno why but i rather i was in 1B
not that i dun like 2E
but it is a new environment
and everything is soo different
and i cant cope with anything at all
i just feel like i am totally useless
and i wasted my time for the past 2+ months
without accomplishing anything
i am soo not emo
i am just pissed with everything
and trying to THINK
what i done wrong
to suffer so much
and i'm like going through all these alone
cz everyone's in china
and thats a sad thing
I AM NOT EMOING