WTH
i'm not going china
thats totally like...
AHHH
i wan die alr
i mean at first i dun really feel like going cz its like so xian
den when got gaia mania
i desperately wanna go for it so that i can skip china trip
budden aft that mrs koh say dr boon dun allow sec2s to skip china trip becz of the gaia mania
so in the end have to go china
den its like i alr confirm i sharing rm with cheryl and guhu
and we are like so happy
den like very qi dai de trip liddat
budden ysd de china de notification thing
say return on the 15
but at first say 14
now suddenly change to 15 or 16
den i got music exam on 15
den pay money alr $200+
den my music tcher say cant skip cz if skip den de money jz fly away liddat cant refund or withdraw or wadeva
den must register again for oct
which is like so many months away
and must pay double jz for a freaking damned exam that i might not even pass
which is totally stupid
so have to choose between china trip and music exam
but its not my choice
its my parents choice
den of course wei le save money dey of course dun wan me go china la
dun go china can dun pay for china de fee and dun pay double for music exam
if go china den must register for music exam again and must pay $1000+ for just a trip
den is like quarrel oso no use in the end i still lose de
so today i giv chenchen my parents letter
den is like he was like not sure if will allow anot
he is like diao qi lai mai liddat lah
stupid den l8r my parents come back home sure ask like xiao den dunno my ans
den will quarrel again.
GAHH feel like dying now
really dunno wad to do
i'll be like wishing that my parents today come home l8 den i slp early
den dunid see their lian se
budden its impossible can
unless i 7pm go slp lah
and summor this few day my parents mood like not good then over trivial matters den will scold me de.
den still got so many test, like over 5 test this week liao
and i'm like so tired of everything.

and because of everything happening, not just the china trip but so many things affecting me,
these few day xing qing very de bu hao
i may look like i ok lah
but inside i am like no mood to listen to anything
no mood to eat
i get pissed and irritated easily and is like i go to sku oso no use i dun learn anything
cz i'm like so stupid
i'm like failing almost everything
and i feel like i'm so useless liddat.
everything oso cant do
like just now oso go for science remedial
at first got 5 ppl de
den mr ong add marks cz de question mark wrong or wad
den only left with 3 ppl le
and i am 1 of dem
i'm like really so tired of everything la
really really tired.

i noe this post is like so emo
i dun like it when i'm emo
but what to do?
theres nothing i can do but try to escape from reality.
for the time being