i'm not sure if i'm like done with my emoing
i mean 2 days is not enough to forget how stupid i am
and how i'm failing or getting 50+ for all my tests when others are like getting so high
and how i will be missing all the fun in china
when everybody else is bonding and enjoying themselves
and when i'm like so left out
and everything else happening at home(which isnt really like home)
yep
2 days is definitely not enough and i wonder when would it be
and yeah i will be going for the guitar performance that i initially wanted to go
but whats the point luh
everybody is having fun in china
while i will be suffering long hours with prac
crossing my legs with a guitar in my very pain de hands plucking on the guitar like some idiot.
and aft that i will be going home(already very tired) and trying to concentrate on studies while i suffer even more not being able to understand a single shit and having nobody to help me
and having to stand with everything else happening in what we call home.

oh GREAT.

to guihui qingying zhiyuan jiaying and cheryl thanks for trying to an wei me
but i really nid time to accept everything luh :/

and just to add on to my HAPPYNESS i have to do DnT
thats like the suckiest thing on earth
esp in mr gey's class
not that i dun like him luh
but is like his expectations are like so super high
and for someone as dumb as the person that is writing this post,
can never meet his very high expectations
especially when i'm like the stupidest person on earth
doing the most stupid thing called DnT
which is a total waste of time
this whole weekend
the homework i have is like Dnt this Dnt that
and not like i have a lot of free time to do this sort of stupid thing luh
i rather like do all the questions in the super thick maths textbook than do dnt can
but do i have a choice?
no

i always wonder why things never go my way
why i cant have my own freedom
and why cant i have a break once in a while
and why everything seems like so unfair
and after 14 years of thinking
i still cant understand
and when would i?